It seems that I’ve not made serious resolutions for many years. Had an urge to do so and yup, here’s my list for 2010.

1. Save more money
2. Lose more fats
3. Learn to swim
4. Excel in work
5. Bring mum for eye checkup and cataract removal
6. Be wiser in all areas

Exactly. It has been a while since I wrote here. Not that nothing has been happening for me, is just that there had been too much things happening around me that I’m weary about writing here.

However, I just wish to share some personal takes, lessons learnt and views here in this blog. I would say that most human beings love praises than criticisms. How many people out there can accept criticisms gracefully, I think there are a few. When you hear things that are against you or not to your liking, you might tend to raise an eyebrow rather than step back, withdraw yourself from your own centre of attraction and ponder about the remarks made on you. Are they true? Do they reflect what you really are or are they just hurtful remarks make to makes you feel sad?

Everyone has their down moments. when you are down, do you wish to hear things that are soothing to your ears or do you wish to hear frank statements about what is causing you to be down and more often, these frank statements are hurtful to the ears. They are sometimes harsh facts that you have been denying or do not questions yourself hard enough to face the reality and that’s why you felt down.

I’ve heard and spoke a lot to different people lately. Listening to problems and sharing problems. I’m not a stubborn person. I do not have strong opinions about general things. I seldom make comments on the spot upon hearing a situation because I often need time to ponder over it and more importantly, I do not wish pass an unfair judgement to things that I hear from a single side.

There are also times that I would have very strong opinions over things and people, However, it would only last a moment for me. As long as I’ve reconciled with myself over many rounds of self questionings, I will choose the method to relief myself. I learn to detach from sadness,detach from situations, detach from my perspectives that I built on people and situations. Is only with a reset self, I can then choose to speak with the person that is causing the unhappiness in me or face the situation bravely. I believed that the best method in self reconciliation is to have an open heart to talk and listen and have the courage to face harsh situations. I need to hold an empty cup in my heart so that I can listen to people and at the same time, observed the available resolutions to problems I faced. A full or overflowing cup will just cloud and blur my visions and hearing to truthful confessions, earnest teachings and lessons taught from people and as well as solutions to problems.

How many people can detach themselves from being self engross in situations and agonies? How many people when faced with situations to their disadvantage could still see things and path clearly for themselves and for others. How many people could flip to the other side of the coin and get to learn that there is another side to view and see situations and about a person?

At this age, there are many lessons taught and learnt. I’m still learning. Learning to be humble, because a humble self will then be able to realise that there are still tonnes of things out there you do not know. Learning how to empathize with others rather than self empathize. It is only when you learn to think from another person point of view that you truly know how to shower care and concern. Self empathize will only make you weak and unable to face reality and neglect people’s care and concern on you. Learning to be contended and yet realise about what is lacking. This is a balancing act.

So my love ones out there who is reading this and have comments and views, please comment. either here or ask me out for coffee.

我是适合午夜的。接近2am的我是精神的。

今天开了音乐来陪伴在周末工作的我。Speaker隔在房里可能有半年没用了吧。1ting.com的streaming很好。这一晚都在听HOCC的歌。我想她是继王菲之后我另外一个很欣赏的女歌手。忠于自我风格，自创音乐。她和王菲不同的可能是电脑方面的知识吧。王菲自认是电脑白痴。HOCC是天天上Facebook和知道什么是Google Wave！hahaha…

周末除了星期六的小小外出以外，其余的时间都在工作上。排斥感已经减退了。现在只想赶快把手上的东西都clear完，恢复我9 to 6的工作程序。我很珍惜自己的私人空间。最近的我思考了很多，看开了很多，看淡了很多，放下了很多。如释重负吧。我需要坚持我这份难得的看开，因为只有这样，我才能达到我要的东西。

今年在我身边所发生的东西很多。总的来说，好像看了一部TVB的大制作。放下悲伤才能让自己前进。看淡后果才能活得豁达。

我坚信明天会更好这句话。只要不放弃自己，这世上没有什么能阻止你的前进步伐。