Exactly. It has been a while since I wrote here. Not that nothing has been happening for me, is just that there had been too much things happening around me that I’m weary about writing here.

However, I just wish to share some personal takes, lessons learnt and views here in this blog. I would say that most human beings love praises than criticisms. How many people out there can accept criticisms gracefully, I think there are a few. When you hear things that are against you or not to your liking, you might tend to raise an eyebrow rather than step back, withdraw yourself from your own centre of attraction and ponder about the remarks made on you. Are they true? Do they reflect what you really are or are they just hurtful remarks make to makes you feel sad?

Everyone has their down moments. when you are down, do you wish to hear things that are soothing to your ears or do you wish to hear frank statements about what is causing you to be down and more often, these frank statements are hurtful to the ears. They are sometimes harsh facts that you have been denying or do not questions yourself hard enough to face the reality and that’s why you felt down.

I’ve heard and spoke a lot to different people lately. Listening to problems and sharing problems. I’m not a stubborn person. I do not have strong opinions about general things. I seldom make comments on the spot upon hearing a situation because I often need time to ponder over it and more importantly, I do not wish pass an unfair judgement to things that I hear from a single side.

There are also times that I would have very strong opinions over things and people, However, it would only last a moment for me. As long as I’ve reconciled with myself over many rounds of self questionings, I will choose the method to relief myself. I learn to detach from sadness,detach from situations, detach from my perspectives that I built on people and situations. Is only with a reset self, I can then choose to speak with the person that is causing the unhappiness in me or face the situation bravely. I believed that the best method in self reconciliation is to have an open heart to talk and listen and have the courage to face harsh situations. I need to hold an empty cup in my heart so that I can listen to people and at the same time, observed the available resolutions to problems I faced. A full or overflowing cup will just cloud and blur my visions and hearing to truthful confessions, earnest teachings and lessons taught from people and as well as solutions to problems.

How many people can detach themselves from being self engross in situations and agonies? How many people when faced with situations to their disadvantage could still see things and path clearly for themselves and for others. How many people could flip to the other side of the coin and get to learn that there is another side to view and see situations and about a person?

At this age, there are many lessons taught and learnt. I’m still learning. Learning to be humble, because a humble self will then be able to realise that there are still tonnes of things out there you do not know. Learning how to empathize with others rather than self empathize. It is only when you learn to think from another person point of view that you truly know how to shower care and concern. Self empathize will only make you weak and unable to face reality and neglect people’s care and concern on you. Learning to be contended and yet realise about what is lacking. This is a balancing act.

So my love ones out there who is reading this and have comments and views, please comment. either here or ask me out for coffee.

Yea, selwyn asked me out yesterday night for a catch up session. The last we met was during Nov 08 Bangkok trip. I missed a Sentosa outing, Xmas Eve Gathering, Siew I BD meal…haha…time to meet one of my JC mate lah har…(I did meet up with Leyen at least twice….saw Yong Seng last weekend at botanic garden)

Yup, that picture was taken yesterday’s night with my 1.3MB camera from SE T303 phone (haha..thought is quite well taken!) while Selwyn was buying drinks and food from the Malay stalls operating at Tanjong Pagar Railway station. very 70s & 80s place with red brick wall and that iron grill gate. cobwebs must be weighing in kilograms as well…haha…anyway…a very out-of-Singapore feel place lah….but food is not fantastic at all…wahaha…

Came back home around 130am…hehe…took only 8 mins…Sel said that’s a luxury leaving in town area.

Had some inner thoughts after last night’s chat session…probably i’ll be taking some actions soon in some work related stuff. Have another dinner appt tonight with one of my boss…hmm….shall i tell? hahaha…I shall see….

Amazinging, I manage to wake up for my usual Sunday dog outing….Today, we’re celebrating Shirley’s friend – Jon’s birthday! so somehow, our last week resolution was only fullfilled by Shirley only (what’s the resolution ar…it was to bring one friend with a dog along to our sunday outing…hehe)

So beibei came my place to pick me and shirley (she took cab to my place) and our two lovely babies – Cash and Shiro. As usual, Shiro never fails to get excited and pee whenever she sees Kuro…but lately, she has been peeing direct at Kuro’s face….oops! Shir and cash arrived shortly and we start our journey to the east!!! Pasir Ris Farmway!

Jon was already there when arrived.  so our dogs where all there for their weekly swim.  Then hor….something that happened last week happen again!!!! Our dear 7342 renault kangoo broke down again!!! what a coincidence! last week shirley’s birthday, it broke down. this week another person’s birthday….it broke down. Shirley said she’s luckier cos she managed to catch 2 meals before kangoo gave way…..but Jon hasn’t eaten anything and it broke down. Shirley also complained “dunno who say this week everyone must bring one friend along…ended up only me bringing jon and a dog along” bei replied “yah…we got bring….i bring deng and deng bring me lor!” hahahahaha….

the car failed to start at the first attempt to revive the battery. the dog/car owners there made different suggestions and comments….but one of them sounded reasonable. “get a more powerful car to connect”. AMAZINGLY, shirley’s cousin turned up at the place and her cousin-in-law drives a WRX…so tat should be powerful enough ba….and thus, he drove his car over to ignite the battery and TAAA DAAA! it works! so all of us pack our bags and go nowhere else but hillview way for the safest place to park the car….

we ordered takeaway lunch at the nice nice dua carpark (that’s the nickname for that coffeeshop area)…hokkien mee, the will-not-be-nua-nua wanton mee….rojak, popiah, etc etc

after lunch, we went up to the cosy corner of bei’s room – the balcony some poker card games. Shirley re-introduce the game IN BETWEEN to all of us and we start placing bet to start the game rolling…everyone added $1 to the pool and it was $5 initially. The game was rather friendly in the beginning with everyone betting $1, $2 more to win portion of the pool money. But erm, we have daring devils at the table….that’s nonetheless – GINA SEH….once seeing opportunities, she’ll SHOW HAND, wanting to win the pot of money….but luck was tough on her today. here are some examples of her cards…

4 and J – GOOD CHANCE….she shouted $10! TAA DAAA….the card opens 4! she has to throw in $20 (DOUBLE!) cos it was not inbetween 4 and J and it happened to be one of the 2 cards!

3 and Q – EVEN BETTER CHANCE….she shouted $50! TAA DAA….the card opens K! she has to throw in another $50….

this kind of good cards but lousy luck persist for her throughout the game and the record pot of money was hitting near $400! Poor cammy is having intense headache on her every hand she had. but she is damn funny lah….she has no lose change and thus she only took a huge stack of paper to start writing money value on them. from the initial $1 to the ultimate $200…

ultimately, beibei was banned from the game due to her extreme suey-ness with the cards today. Cam called for a game over resolution as she cannot take it anymore when even I lose $100 to the pot after following suit on bei’s suey-ness in the game…but surprisingly, somewhat near $100 is missing as we count the split of money….hahaha…gone with the win or we counted wrongly right from the start?

we changed game….to something friendly, yet abusive….HEART ATTACK! hahahaha….and the very suey bei must still injure her finger while trying to hit us hard on calling a heart attack. and i also super cock eye….i looked as if it was a personal revenge on one of my heart attack win to only hit the sideway which ended up a strong blow on her hand….hahahaha…..

We switch game to play big two…Jon said she knew the basic only…but we still play along…we started with pair. 3 pair, 4 pair, 5 pair…then is jon’s turn. she asked “how many cards should i throw” we answered “something with pair” so she throw big! Q pair! we all passed and is her turn……she throw……J pair….we laughed! are you sure you can play this game? Cammy went over to look at her cards and laugh out loud! after throwing her Q pair and J pair….she AMAZINGLY has one more J and Q on hand! hahahaha…anyway, bei won that round…..i think we all still dunno how to play big two in front of her since our bangkok trip….unbeatable…haha…

we switched game again…..to AH CHUP….somethings similiar to mahjong….something that doesn’t have to depend on luck that much and requires some thinking…..so bei suggested…..let’s gamble again…so we played $0.50 per hand…poor birthday girl lost quite a bit in this game as we keep seeing her opening her wallet to take out more money to pay…i lost $2 but i think shir and bei won some combine $30 off Jon….haha….

we played black jack as well….i still sucks at it….lost almost all my hand i think….shirley should be a happy banker swiping away all our money at her very lucky hands….hehe….

we ordered pizza hut which came very late and we left at around 1030pm. it was a very tired but yet fun day….we rocked the house whenever bei is down on her luck with the cards…..hahaha….just too funny….i very tired now….1am…gotta sleep….anything i miss out just refer to comments or addons on badnana xanga blog.