2009 has seemed to have just slipped thru my calendar without giving me a chance to live it at a slower pace. Being 30 is also a time that I solidify my beliefs and principles and stood firmer with it. I am less tolerant to certain acts that I used to tolerate. I used to surpress a lot of feelings and just let things happened the way I don’t want it to be. Perhaps I’ve had enough of myself in doing so.

Do I have higher expectations on people and even myself? I guess I do. Some said I eliminate people that cross the path in my life and thus I will become more lonely as time goes by. Some said I am just being selective about people I want to spend quality time with for the bulk of my life. Is it wrong to set expectations on people? I guess this is just human nature. I always believe that life is about managing expectations.

I had some upset feelings lately over some friendship issue. Only my closet friends knew about it. To date, sometimes I do question myself if timeline were to reverse, would I have treaded the same path.

Work wise, being 3 years in the same company does make myself reflect on a lot of things. once again, I witness the growth of a potential company and yet because of its growth, I felt the environment become less friendly. I’m still learning. Learning to put less emotion to things and situations as this greatly affects my ability to judge at times. The weariness does sets in at times and makes me feel disheartened. Had a talk lately with a close client-cum-friend, someone I knew in previous company. She was my attachment student then but after which, she strike out on her own and sets up 2 companies. The 1st one didn’t fail but partnership didn’t work out. Thus, she packed her bag and sets up another, taking along with her connections she built previously. I admire her. Gonna get real busy again with new complex projects coming in. i welcome them.

Well, is August soon. one of my favourite month of the year. seems quite happening…country birthday with of course public holiday. used to be gaga over 8 Aug as it is Faye Wong’s Birthday…then comes beibei’s birthday. seems like a non-stop celebrating month full of events.

ok, a boring post but yea…that’s all the thoughts within me lately.